Why is it so hard?

I have had the craziest week this week. I have had something going on every day and almost every single night. I have been exhausted and not eating carbs has made me even more tired. I totally cracked Wed and binged on some carbs. It was like my body and mind were just craving them and I had to feed my addiction of flour/sugar. Have I mentioned how much I love both of those things? Now I am depressed, feeling guilty and those feelings lead to more eating and then the cycle continues. Will I ever reach my goal?

I'll be writing more but had to at least let you know that I have been totally failing the past couple of days. This is exactly why extreme dieting never works in the long run. You feel so deprived that then when you fall...you fall hard.

Damn it! I hope I don't gain weight this week.

One Week Down

1 week down...3.5 pounds down.

Not the 5 that I had hoped for but I will take it! I know I messed up a few times. I am still proud of that result though.

Day 7: Accelerate

I felt like today was a pretty good day. I didn't get in my my 45 minutes on the treadmill but I did eat pretty good and drink my water. I did have about 2 Cups of popcorn while we watched a movie last night but at least it has a low glycemic index. By the way, if you are looking for a good flick..watch Lincoln Lawyer. It is rated R but it should of been PG-13. Not sure why it was R.

Well, I've been doing the plan for a week. Lets hope that I can do as good of a job or better next week.

Breakfast

Mini muffin tin meatloaf

Berry Smoothie

Lunch

Raw Veggies (Broccoli, Carrots, Cucumber, Bell Pepper)

Roasted Red Pepper Hummus

Ranch Dip

Dinner

Steamed Asparagus

Meatloaf

1 TBSP ketchup

Snack

2 C popcorn

Total WW Points for today was 25

Day 6: Accelerate

Honesty is the best policy, right? I can't tell you how badly I wanted to lie and tell you that everything I did and ate yesterday was perfect. It wasn't. Confession: I had a slice of zucchini bread. Don't ask my why I can't JUST SAY NO to the baked goods. Social gatherings are killing me. I am seriously reevaluating my schedule and going to try and do less. I can't worry about other people, I have to stay focused and keep my eye on the prize. Right, Jordan?

While I was disappointed that I did not stay right on plan and that I went over my weight watcher points by 5 I am still proud of my accomplishments. Compared to what I would of ate at a social gathering in the past, I did great! I also earned 40 activity points this week and have not used any of my flex points. This does not get me off the hook though. I didn't not drink enough water yesterday and I didn't fit in any exercise. Today I am vowing to 45 minutes on the treadmill to burn off my zucchini bread. I am not going to get too upset. I am just going to go eat my egg and smoothie and do good today. Tomorrow I have a weigh in and I want to see 4-5 pounds lost! I am officially 100% on plan with the 17 day plan...NOW!

Also..last night I tried to recreate an image, too bad I didn't have someone snap a picture. About 5 years ago I got down to 182 pounds and thought I was looking pretty good. I have a picture of me in a tank top and weight pants and I had it posted on my fridge as a goal photo. I thought I looked great at that time. Well, last night I put the exact same outfit on, put my make up on and tried to even do my hair similar to that photo (it is shorter now though). The shirt fit great and my pants were super baggy. I showed the pic to a few people and they all agreed that I looked skinnier now. I remember thinking that if I ever just got to that goal, I would be looking pretty good. Guess it's time to find a new picture :)

Breakfast

Egg with Salsa

Snack

1 slice zucchini bread

Lunch

Meatloaf

Dinner

Low carb pinwheels

Raw vegetables w/hummus

Whole grain chips & black bean/corn salsa

Total WW Points for today was 34

RECIPES

Low Carb Pinwheels

6 WW Points per tortilla which is about 6-8 pinwheels

Mission Carb balance soft taco tortillas

8 oz 1/3 fat cream cheese

4 TBSP light sour cream

1 packet of hidden valley ranch dry

Spinach leaves

Healthy Choice low sodium turkey lunch meat

Mix cream cheese, sour cream and ranch packet. Spread on tortillas and layer spinach on half of the cream cheese. Lay 2-3 thin turkey slices on top of the spinach. Roll and refrigerate for at least one hour. Slice tortillas into 6-8 pinwheel sandwiches.

Day 5: Accelerate

I am not sure if today was a success or failure? It was definitely a success compared to my typical dinner party but kind of a failure when it comes to the 17 day plan. I was super busy this morning that I didn't eat enough and then tonight I had a few things I shouldn't have. Here is the break down. For my dinner party I served scalloped potatoes and homemade french bread and I totally abstained, this is a plus! My meatloaf does have some oatmeal in it so that had a few carbs and the tomato sauce. My neighbor brought broccoli cauliflower salad but I know the dressing had some sugar in it. My biggest boof of the day was eating a cookie. I had one when they were right out of the oven; I just couldn't resist trying one. However, tonight when I served them to my guests, I did not have any. I just enjoyed my cup of coffee.

Not a perfect day but not bad either. I am just going to be good tomorrow and forget about it!

Breakfast

Apple

Lunch

Taco Salad left overs

Snack

Oatmeal chocolate chip cookie (homemade)

Dinner

Meatloaf

Green beans

Broccoli/Cauliflower Salad

After dinner snack

Coffee with FF half & half

Game Plan

Since we have family and friends in town we are hosting dinner tomorrow night and while I am enjoying my way of eating I am not so sure that everyone else would. Also several of the recipes I have never tried before and I hate making a new meal for guests. I prefer making something that I know I am good at. Usually for big groups I make pasta, mexican or a casserole just because it is so easy. As you all know, these are loaded with carbs and not an option. I had originally planned on making sesame fish but not everyone like fish and I am having a pretty big group (9 people). This means I needed a new game plan.

I have been racking my brain about what I could make that I could still enjoy some food but my guests would be happy too. I am also hosting a jewelry party on Friday night and need to supply some appetizers. I am trying to at least make one appetizer I can eat. :)

Plan for tomorrow...Meat, vegetable, potato, salad and homemade french bread. I can't eat the potato or bread but I can fill up on meat, veggies and salad. I am thinking about making meatloaf with extra lean ground beef. My recipe is tasty and low in carbohydrates. I think this will be good with everyone. I'll post recipes and more details tomorrow. Not sure about dessert either. Maybe I'll just do coffee and pull something out of my freezer. I know if I go to the effort to make it, I will want to sample it. Then again, my Kitchen Aid mixer just got here today and I am dying to give it a try.

Any ideas for appetizers? Maybe a veggie tray? So boring. Suggestions please!

Day 4: Accelerate

I am tired today! I don't know if it's due to the diet or just lack of sleep. Our dog coughed all night long last night. I took him to vet this morning and he has bronchitis. Taking him to the vet was not part of my planned day and it resulted in me having a small cheat. I had my smoothie this morning but then took Jack to the vet which took much longer than expected. Then I had to pick up the kids from my friends house and come home. I had my smoothie around 9AM and didn't get home till 1:30 for lunch. On my way to pick up the kids I had 8 animal crackers. Probably won't kill me but it wasn't on plan but seriously I was going to pass out if I didn't eat something.

I came home and the only quick thing I had to eat was my zucchini/broccoli salad, so I had that for my lunch. It wasn't much so even though it is 3:50 I have already planned my dinner and started making it. I am going to eat early tonight; around 4:30. I am going to workout at 5:30 and tonight is cardio/weight lifting circuits and I will need the energy. My friend Maggie from Nashville is meeting me tonight, so I am excited. A lot of times when I get home from working out, I don't feel like I eating so tonight I am going to try eating prior to workout instead of after.

My trainer really likes me to drink liquid protein (shake or glass of milk) post workout. It is not on the plan but as of right now I have only had 14WW points, including dinner and I know that is not enough. I am going to probably have my chocolate milk after my workout because I know that my muscles need to be replenished after a hard workout. Also since I am logging WW points I know that I haven't had much food today and I don't want to go into starvation mode.

Breakfast

Strawberry Smoothie

Snack

8 animal crackers

(this was not on plan but I was so hungry)

Lunch

Zucchini Ribbon/Broccoli Salad

Dinner

Taco Salad

Post Workout snack

1 C chocolate milk

Total WW Points today: 20

RECIPES

Taco Salad

6 WW Points

Lean Ground Turkey

Taco Seasoning

Lettuce

Tomatoes

Onion

Salsa

Fat Free Sour Creamy