Sunday, September 26, 2010
A Bend in the Road, Is not the End of the Road
So these past few weeks have really been a struggle. It is getting harder and harder to stay 100% motivated, to pack lunches, to make time to work out, etc. I have just hovered right under 200 for weeks. It is so frustrating and it makes you want to give up. I am hating to say it but for the first time, I am feeling defeated.
I have to be honest with myself. My diet has not been perfect and even though I have been exercising, my trainer always says "you can't out train a bad diet". However, even though I haven't been blemish free I have still tried hard to stay on track. I can definitely tell you where my downfall is...I am not logging my points. In order to be successful you have to "write it..if you bite it". I know that this is what has been hindering me. I only get 25 points a day now and one slip up can cost you 10 points. Also, I have been eating out way more since returning to work. I have work lunch meetings, my trip to Chicago or forgetting to pack my lunch because I know the hospital cafeteria or atrium cafe will have an option for me. Yet these options are never as good as the option of bringing my own food. I know my pitfalls but for some reason I have been complacent.
I really need something to ignite that spark again. I was so motivated to lose 50 pounds by the time I returned to work. What can I be motivated for in order to lose the last 50. I need to just be motivated within myself but it is so much easier when you have a goal or something to look forward to. I have tried to set little goals but have failed.
My birthday is 9 weeks away. I have been trying to be under 185 which would be my lowest weight in the past 6 years. That is what I am going to try for. I am going to work super hard to do it. I need your help. Are you guys even still reading?? I know I can do it. Also, the new season of biggest loser just started. That will help! I have a few challenges ahead though. I have friends coming into town starting Thursday. The good news is that both of them are also trying to eat healthy; so hopefully we will all be able to hold each other accountable.