Monday, August 15, 2011
Hi, I'm Cheryl...and I'm an addict
Oh...I love the white powder. I love the way it makes me feel....not cocaine, not meth...but flour and sugar. I seriously have a problem. I can't figure out why I can't find a good balance for my love of sugar. If I go totally carb free I don't seem to crave it but as soon as the powder touches my lips, I am sunk! I can't seem to stop myself. I can't just have one bite or a small taste. I keep coming back for more.
I tell myself, "don't do it" but then I do it anyway. That is why I think it truly is an addiction. The sad part is that I love to bake and cook. It is one of my favorite hobbies but I just can't have that stuff around. My kids have treats and snacks and I am continually catching myself eating goldfish, pretzels, fruit snacks, etc. I eat the crust off their PB&J sandwiches, I have a couple bites of the pancakes. It is all this crap that adds up and keeps me right where I am!
Any suggestions? I don't want to give it up entirely..because what kind of life is that? But how to reduce? That is the problem with food addiction. You don't have to have cigarettes to live, you don't have to gamble to live or drink alcohol to live. Technically you don't have to have sex to live but you know what you do have to have? FOOD! It's not like you can just give it up if you're addicted. Then again you don't have to refined sugar and flour to live. Just thinking out loud.